All in due time, and all in time

The past one week has been quite the uphill climb for me.

Lets’ just say, too many lessons learnt in too short a time. 

God grace, God’s grace. 

I’m most thankful that I’ve been graced with the thought of him through trying times. 

And that the lessons came just in time. 

Now may He pacify all the collateral damage. 

My better half

I don’t think I’ve written about my better half.

Our history is not important for today. The eraser throwing and the drama in between. What matters is how amazing he is.

We’ve been together a long time. We spend time with one another, we try. Sometimes it’s difficult. Sometimes we forget what are supposed to be to one another. Sometimes we just function around one another. But, love filled, always. Friends, always. 

But, once in a while the most amazing thing that happens.  The most amazing thing that happens between us, for me, maybe for him as well, are those moments where we feel like we just fell in love all over again.

He says something, or does something, or he makes a simple but honest and loving gesture, something so simple yet special, that makes my heart swell with love… really swell, that it cannot be contained, that the love must be shown, often in a big huggy wuggy squeezing the living daylights out of him…

And to think that he and I still share such moments 6 years into our relationship. To know that he still falls in love with me after being in love with me for the last 11 years.

He really is my better half.

You know you’re blessed when you have so many amazing people in your life. 

I’m blessed with so many.

Oxymoron

Recently, I received one of the most powerful compliments ever of my life.

From someone I would have though incapable of such depth. Even if capable of such depth, then would be clouded by his enormous ego to actually say what he did to me. Amazing nonetheless.

Most compliments carry with them room for growth, progress, but not this one. This compliment says, nay, screams “stop what you’re doing.” You’ve damaged yourself, stop before you damage someone else. Yes, damage and scar. Denoting permanency.

Now, I need to pay myself a compliment and stop self-destructing.

Love yourself Amreeta.

Love, love, love.

Amreeta, love Amreeta.

As I put this post up, I know I have damaged another.

Of Needs, Wants and being Itchy

It’s not like I need it.

I don’t necessarily want it either.

I’m just what we say in Malaysia “itchy”.

Stop itching.

Maybe bored.

Maybe it’s a compulsion? A disease? Yeah, that would be an easy escape…. Pfftttttt.

Curdled Milk

It is not split personality

Maybe it is

No no, it isn’t

But it sure seems like a valid accusation

No, no, it is something deeper

maybe it is something too deep to understand

nah, he is probably just good ol’ shallow.

The style

I usually type my post out in a Word document to do my best to avoid silly spelling and grammatical mistakes. Plus there is a safe button, and I can review what I wrote later to better it. Also, I can write despite not having internet. Then when I can, I put my posts up. Smile. Love